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Friday, April 25, 2008

1:00 PM

FORMULA DRIFT THIS SUNDAY!

Grandstand seats!

Yay-ness!

&the beauty.

12:03 AM

How sad to know that such parents exist in this world. The mother left the family and disappeared, the father wanted to get rid of his daughters and pledged a complete stranger to take care of them.

How crude?

I hate such irresponsible parents. So what the couples are young? They know how to make love, but cant even take the bloody responsibility of the end result?

What a child wants is just a sense of belonging, love, care and concern from the parents. Next, environment plays a big big role in their growing stage. No wonder juvenile delinquency is on the rise, dont tell me they are beyond parental control, its plain excuse to me. They are being labelled as juvenile for a reason.

Think back the times when we were just a juvenile? Do you feel stupid to even think back of the things you did back then? And obviously regret it? Everybody does! What am i trying to prove? They are not in the right maturity state to make decisions for themselves and normally, the path they choose to take is going to land them in some kind of trouble, so please, the child maker be responsible and nurture them for goodness sake.

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I am being separated from mum since 7 years old because of my studies and sometimes i do hate her for making this decision. I feel that my life is lacking of something and i am constantly unhappy and depress.

My growning years were a painful one but, I am proud to say the pain make me to become a stronger person. I am lucky that though i did fall into bad company but my determination not to get influenced is there. I did not join gang, smoke, drink, do drugs, have casual sex like friends around me.

Chastity.

Well, i did try to smoke, few months back though BUT not in the influence of peer. I dont see the pleasure of smoking, and they make me sick. Serious headache, cold sweat and ulcer. Damn, How you people enjoy smoking? And i totally agree with mei fang, smokers are a huge turn off.

I have a girlfriend, she used to smoke alot, go clubbing and have fun. But, ever since she found out she was pregnant she tried her best to quit the habit of smoking and she did it. Not only for the babies but for herself as well.

I totally respect her, she is a very strong willed woman though she is from a broken family herself. But she strive to give the best to her daughters, I never see such dedication from other young mummy before. She handle her daughters' life very well, take care of every details of their life from A to Z.

No other woman like her, really.

Girlfriend, although we rarely catch up with each other, i want you to know that theres a little space in my heart and mind reserved just for you. We are too caught up with our own life but i never forget to whisper a little prayer for you and your love ones every night.

Cheers to our friendship! Loves!

Edited: Photos up next post. Promise. (:

&the beauty.

12:17 AM

Brought Buddy to pierce reservoir last 2 weeks ago. Oh ya, forget to update we got a new dog, yes adopted. Buddy is his name and he has only one ear, the right side of the ear was bitten off by his mum when he was born.

He is loved by everybody! Simply too adorable. Yummy!

And and and, he knows how to shake hand, stand up, walk on 2 legs and i am teaching him more! Of course he did that because he knows i will be giving him treat, greedy dog huh.

Today is also my uncle's birthday. Went to East Coast park to eat seafood, damn delicious. Photos will be up next post. Lazy upload now.

GOOD NIGHT EARTHLING! *wink!

OH, before i go. I just brought the newly launched Pure White Set by Artistry! Yes, my face is infested with pimple scars, dont yuck me yet. Give me a few more months! Presenting the new Artistry Pure White! Tadah!

Yay countdown to Bangkok trip!

12 MORE DAYS TO GO. WOOOOOOoo

&the beauty.

12:26 AM

My internship ends on 31st of march and well, supposedly to go back to work on the 28th, 29th and 30th. As after clearing my leave and public holiday i still left with 3 working days.

At first, my last 3 days suppose to be on 29th, 30th and 31st, BUT, my mum flight is on 31st, i see no point in working on the last day and so I called up the workplace and changed my leave instead. I message my manager, Remi and asked what time he will leave the workplace, (he is always coming in to work late and going off early) so I will know what time to call him to discuss about the change of the leave.

And the stupid thing is, the jealous wife of the manager was holding on to his phone. And accuse him/me of having sweet romance behind this imaginative wife.

Dear wife, Remi is the most irresponsible man i ever met, he is not the quality man that I am looking for. I don't see the point of insecurity that you have, even if he is the last man on earth neither would I fall for him. *ROLL EYES many many times*

This is not the first time they quarrel over such trivial matter, and to make the matter worst, Remi actually scolded me for messaging him.

Like, what the fuck la, its your own bloody problem and push the blame to me for messaging you? Take care of your insane wife first la. Buay tahan.

So, this is the interesting part. I went to see doctor, and he gave me 3days MC. So, in another words, i don't have to go back to work, AT ALL. Happy not. On one hand, i hesitated. On another hand, bloody hell its time to pay back. To think of i become cow and horse for the department.

I think the message between the childish Fadli and me tells it all. Guys, you be the judge. The conversation is not being edited. Very intellectual leh!

Fadli: Hey Sue nice one! U planned everything so well. Thank you very much for doing this to us. It really shows what kind of person u are. Thanks n take care. Cheers!

(Aiya, i have many names la, they call me Sue because of my Thai name, Sue-kri-ang-krai Si-ra-pra-pha. Li Juan because its my Chinese name, Sonja because of my baptism name. And i didnt plan anything, everything just fall into place, God's grace.)

Me: You are welcome. (: but i know i'm not as bad as you cousins anyway. (: cheers too.

(Remi and Fadli are cousins and they are super afraid that people of the hotel will know. How i know then? Well, the previous Asst. Manager resigned and warned me about them being cunning. I asked why and he just replied 'They are connected' I didnt think much about it but still on my guard as i dont want to be sabotage by them in anyway. And guess what? Another new Asst Manager, Aidil join the stupid hotel and he confirmed my doubt. Remi and Fadli are cousins Aidil told me, Haha how interesting? I see the cousins so drama mama all the time! 'Oh you mean boss off today? Oh, boss haven come? Oh, oh, oh, oh your ass la Fadli.)

Me: Of so much i ever did, please keep in mind this is NOT the job that i want to do. Still, i give my very best. Oh i almost forget the things i did are not being appreciated. i wonder who is the cunning one? Do you wonder too? Sue? The cousins? Haha, oh wells, smile cousins! have a nice weekend ahead.

(They keep labeling me as trainee trainee, hello hotel, the proper term is "Intern". They gave me shit position, but i gave my best. Fair? Fuck you la HR director John Tan, having affair with another Indonesia intern doesnt prove that your manhood is still working. Its adultery you understand not John Tan? I wonder how your child is going to look up to you?)

Fadli: Cousins? I dont get u? Trying to make sumthing out of nothing? Haha i mean come on lah what wrong did i ever do to u? Did i ever do anything wrong to u? I cant think of any. Tell me coz i would really like to know.

(First, who is the one making something out of nothing? Who started this sms war? Any person of the right mind will want to defend one self so i replied back. But my sms are short and sweet because the conversation is getting really out of the point. I dont know what he is trying to prove? That he is really so good in acting? Or what?

Second, he did alot of things behind my back and he thought i dont know. There bond to be abit of politics at work place but place is horrible. I dont even bother to answer him the question that he posed, simply because he know best what he did to me.

Lastly, he is stupid)

Me: Acting skill still improving, not bad. You want me to elaborate? Uncle Remi?Alright i am busy. bye!

(Oh yar, Remi is his uncle as said by Aidil)

Fadli: Cousins? Tell me who? U heard from someone? Oh yar i also heard from someone that ur a freelance prostitute is that true? Pls lah do u have proof to defend ur statement? So stupid

(Still deny, please tell me who is the stupid one? Two people warned me about them, Two people told me they are connected. Without using brain to process before speaking, he said something about being prostitute, that's an insult to me. Unless being cousins is an insult to him, I've nothing to say.)

Me: Stop your acting. Its damn irritating. Good bye. See you when i come back to clear locker. Please smile for me.

Fadli: Oh thats why u always say i should know wat! When we talk bout boss. Haha gotnothing better to accuse me of issit. Get something better lah sue. Please get sumthing better next time if not dont waste time ok.

(Understand what is he trying to say? Who is accusing who? Who is suppose to get something better to do? He just slapped his own mouth.)

Me: Brush up your English. Thank you very much. Good bye, nice weekend ahead.

(I really dont feel like replying him, but my finger is damn itchy)

Fadli: Im not talking to a girl i want to impress so why should i use good english? Im just talking to a nobody who is a freaking thai who acts like a sporean girl haha hey look in the mirror ok. Ur just a thai ok.

(And if you realised, i did not insult him or use any harsh words on him because i still respect him as a friend and I do have my own set of 'freaking Thai' ethic in me to not insult people.I'm born in Thailand yes, but i grow up here, in Fadli's truly Singapore. I must be having serious problem if i dont behave like a Singaporean but a Thai instead. Fadli, you are a disgrace to Singapore, really.)

Me: Childish. Grow up. (:

(Really cant be bothered anymore)

Fadli: Childish? Eh u also have an affair wif the BnM guy isnt it? I almost forgot. The one who calls u all the time remember? And always looking for u in the gym. Pity ur bf lah.

(See, who is the one accusing and dig things to say instead? BnM is a lawyer firm and the guy is a member of the hotel gym, people like me and look for me means i must like back and have an affair? Who teach you this theory? Your ITE teacher ah? Ask my boyfriend he will tell you how stupid you really sounds)

Me: Thank you for your concern, for my boyfriend.

(I seriously want to end this, though i risk making him think i have an affair. But someone either me or him have to stop, and its unlikely to be him.)

Fadli: No worries. (:

(And he thought he won. Oh, so oh clever)

&the beauty.

12:15 PM

New Job + New life + New beginning = New dilemma too.

I am smiling ear to ear now, because i am out from the damn hotel.

Will elaborate more next post, already have the draft but have not finished typing. Its going to be a long entry by the way.

Many many things happened. Mum already went back Bangkok. Started a new job. Going on company trip to Bangkok at the end of this month. *grin

Saving up for a flat, hopefully by then, the property market will not be so hot then. Keep fluctuating, so frustrating.

Alright, tata! next post will be up real soon. Abit of preview ya, its an entry about conversation with a very childish Malay guy who thought he is oh la la ahem, intellectual (He is far from it).

&the beauty.