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Sunday, January 25, 2009

3:11 AM

life is but a sigh.

'li juan is a cheerful and happy-go-lucky person'

'li juan is a pretty and sporty girl'

'li juan is very friendly girl who is good in science'

'li juan is a very encouraging girl, a very sincere friend'

Those are the comments that my primary school classmates wrote about me.
It is on a piece of heart-shaped green colour paper.
Our form teacher forced everyone in the class to write something for one another before we graduate from primary school.

I was very happy to recieve the compliments from them. Hardly anybody praise me.
As i grow older, all i hear from the adults were:

'you are a disappointment to me'
'you are a disappointment to me'

even up to till now.

I wish i could take away the mask i wear everyday, to really smile. What is the equation of being happy, to attain happiness? Why am i being forced to grow up faster than everyone elses? Why the pressure is on me to earn money is on the basic survival.

people just dont understand why i strive so hard in life.
if you are in my shoe, would you allow people to point finger at you and say ' li juan you are damn useless in the family'
or would you rather prove them wrong.

enlighten me, before you sentence me 'death sentence'

&the beauty.

1:25 AM

((:

Very sleepy!

BUT.

Feel like saying hello to those who reads my blog or even to those who are checking me out in the dark through my blog.

To the good friends - i am doing good! but damn busy with work. I hope you understand, but you know i am a person who play hard too. SO, be patience! we'll catch up soon!

To the hmmm, bad people out there, or whoever like to spin tales about me, kapo about my life - i am doing very good! i think even better than you! ((: and one more thing! dont look down on me or despise me anymore, because i am doing good! i think i will be happier and or even richer than you someday. ((:

Happy Chinese New Year!

&the beauty.

6:28 PM

2 good news.

1) PR - Boss signed my paper, give the green light to apply! awaiting interview date which is approaching soon. After which, have to wait for ICA to process for another 3 months. knn, but hope all goes well.

2) Pay Increment - My big boss talked to me. And indeed, pay is such a sensitive issue when you get to know how much another colleague is getting versus the amount of responsibility he/she have and the lack of initiative at the workplace.
I dont demand figure from you i told my boss, you pay me the amount you think i am worth. And he joked, $50 increment. If he mean it, i take it. Haha. Its not that i dont have other job waiting for me. You must be thinking, i must be mad not to request an amount. I have my reasons. (:

All is going well. I am no saint nor angel, but i hope i can help someone to tide through this. I know my rewards will be far more better next time.

&the beauty.

12:13 AM

Hmmmmm.
somebody walked pass me pretending i do not exists.

and i pretend too.

If only...

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