you're a mystery yourself

Sunday, June 29, 2008

3:15 AM

why cant we just have a balance in life.

why are we always being put to the test.

control myself i said,

but my heart betrayed me.

&the beauty.

11:04 PM

Its Beifen Birthday!

Well, its a very special celebration.

I dont think she will ever forget this. We brought her flowers, but the delivery man dont just deliver flower! He sings too! It is called the surprised delivery. Very innovative huh! Check out their website, they are from the Olive3. http://www.theolive3.com/

I really hope she enjoy her birthday today. Look, she ran to the toilet halfway! Haha.

When i called her out from her office she was so stunt to see the whole of company standing at the reception area, and tried to turn back. She was also so surprise to see this lady (from the Olive3) handing her the flowers, and you should see the look of her face! Haha, hilarious! She just stand there dont know what to do when the guy (from Olive3) started singing to her.

Imagine her horror! I totally can understand your embarrassment! But thats the whole point, for you to remember this day! And also your this friend.

Alright, i going to take a shower and sleep soon. Someone is on leave tomorrow, and i need to come in, in the morning.

*have some problem uploading the video, go to http://youtube.com/watch?v=BaPDrxxkvZg to watch.

&the beauty.

12:25 AM

Its Fen's birthday!

Cant wait to go to work later. Its going to be an exciting day!

Wont elaborate more now, i know she will be reading my blog. Next entry! HEEHEE

Wilson brought a perfume for me. The smell is a tad too feminine for me though, nevertheless, still love it. Hearts! <3 Thank you for the surprise!

head in a whirl

should i take a step back

and risk losing

dilemma

please lock my heart away

&the beauty.

12:49 AM

To a someone,

After what you have shared with me, i felt that actually life is full of regrets.
You also taught me the meaning and importance of love.
You taught me money is not everything.

Though its just that short time frame of conversation with you.
I felt that we have spoken many time before.
Thank you for guiding me through.

I just hope that you can move on with life.
Open up your heart.
I will cheer you on. (:

&the beauty.

2:06 PM

Not feeling my best.

Define 'friends' please.

Your are the problem or me?

I cant find anything wrong with me, you started the formality between us.

I felt unfair.

Please enlighten me.

&the beauty.

4:10 PM

OK.

So now, the motivational talk by my boss trigger me, yet again. I have heard thousands and thousands of motivational talks and this is really different.

Suddenly i just realised how the previous of thousands and thousands of motivational talks have shaped my life and my thoughts for the future.

I've read alot of self motivational books, rich dad poor dad, parable of the pipeline and many more (just to name a few), i have the concept but lack the platform. Damn.

Dont tell me i am still young, can try more jobs, different type of line and bla bla.

I'm hungry for success, at a young age. Yes.

Dont tell me i am being unrealistic too. Thats my dream.

Do you have one?

My boss is my idol. (:

&the beauty.

10:30 PM

So damn pissed after reading an entry posted by my friend. Yes i know blogs are meant for people to vent their anger/frustrations/happiness/sadness, whatever, but i just cant help it but feel pissed.

I wont want to elaborate what, how and why. Sure no need to be friend after that. Just felt unfair. Really. And dont bother asking me who.

Found a job, introduced by a close friend. The staffs there are super friendly, reminds me of the time i worked in Sentosa. Really pray, hope, cross fingers/toes that no no politics or things like people dislike me, green eye or for whatever reasons la.

I come here to work, with no other intentions. I am trying to be nice to everybody and i do not want any enemies. Please huh God, 'do not bring us to the test, but deliver us from evil'.

Right, good night people!

EUGENE ANG, I WANT MY PSP SLIM!

&the beauty.

12:08 AM

Sunday, went to intercontinental hotel for buffet. One of my relative's baby girl's full month.

This cute little girl, she's my 2nd uncle's son's daughter. Haha. Cute right?

First attempt. Never look at camera.

Second attempt, she posed the 7 sign. haha

Was also my cousin's birthday yesterday. Went to eat steamboat at bugis area.

Today, brought her to sentosa cafe del mar.

This stupid bugger from ACS irritated us to the core.

First he speak in some stupid slang with his friends.

Second, he started singing this stupid line 'baby come back' on the tram.

Third, i just dont like his look.

&the beauty.

2:17 PM

We are okay now. Heehee.

I went jogging at pierce reservoir on Thursday! And having muscle aches now.

Last night went out with wilson, his friends, my friends for bike outing. And guess what. My tummy giving problem, half the time i was squatting down holding on to my tummy. Indigestion i think. I can feel the food moving down in my left intestine la! And its damn painful.

I totally cannot stand up straight, have to bend my body while walking.

Went to Changi Village and Loyang as Wilson's friend want to pray.

Wilson's, Ken's and Leon's

Wilson's

Indigestion is okay now. ((:

&the beauty.

12:51 AM

So he thought by ignoring me can show how angry he is.

I dont give a damn if you are going to ignore me, lets see if who can give the silent treatment longer. Damn you.

Its not even fucking my fault. You didnt hear my sms, you blame it on me for not calling you instead. Go fuck your dog, really.

You dont have to ignore me to remind me how lonely i am already. I'm not like you, who have parents and your dog by your side. Look here, i am jobless. I have nothing now but time and you want to make a big fuss that i am spending the TIME out with my friends.

I dont feel like seeing you, it make me stress x1000 because you remind me of happiness.
But i cant do anything to buy that happiness because i'm so lost now.

Yes i am sensitive, i am a bitch but i am fucking pissed at you now.
I'm your girlfriend yes but you have the means tie me down now, marry me!

Damn.

I was trying to be nice and call you after that, you didnt even want to pick up my call and a fucking sms say 'sleeping' and you can throw all this fucking issue out of the window. Might as well add, 'i dont wish to talk to you/ dont call me'

I'm tired. Tired of being strong. Too strong in fact.

All those smiles for you, you think its easy? You know how lost i am these few days? You fucking know that?

Nah.

I bet you dont.

You're not feeling any better i know.

I feel useless.

&the beauty.