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Saturday, August 30, 2008

10:09 PM

Damn boring.

Is my weekend suppose to be spend this way?

Shit.

&the beauty.

11:40 AM

$300 Rent.
$200 Dad

$400 Transportation
$300 Food

$80 Hand phone
$100 Basic necessities
$??? Entertainment and Shopping

I am taking up class 2b now as well too.

Oh wells. I am not going to grumble that i need a pay raise or life is unfair to me or what so ever.
I guess i am pretty much happy that i am in control of my own life now. And that i dont have to depend on anybody for financial support anymore.

Who at my age managed to achieve this? Not many. And who actually give allowance to parents? Only one of my close friend does. One.

I am pretty contented on the rate that i am going now though i secretly wished that i was born rich, have a very rich boyfriend so i dont have to strive on my own so much. But on the another hand, i thought to myself, even if i have a rich boyfriend, i would still strive to be financial independent.

Nothing beats the feeling of being in control of your own life.

I am sore that i still dont have the means to give my mum allowance yet. But, i hope 2 to 3 years time, i would be able to do it.

I was thinking back the days that made me a person i am now. Separated from parents since young because of studies.

Bad childhood memories.

Wasted childhood.

I can easily hate the person who gave me whole load of hell when i was young, but without the bad memories, i dont think i can be the person i am now.

I was often humiliated.
Often slapped/beat.
Often criticised.
Often deprived of love, care and concern.
Often treated as maid.
Often go to school with loads of bruises on my arm, face and leg.

I dont know how i survived all these. I think my faith keeps me going.

I dont know if my parents know all these. I guess they must be heartbroken if they knew thier daughter were being treated this way.

I kept quiet throughout my years of staying at that person place.

Until one day, i ran out of the house. And, that was when parents thought thier daughter was being beyond 'parental control'. They thought thier daughter was so so bad. Dad even wanted to send me back to bangkok. How nice i thought.

Till now i still cant bring myself to be nice to dad. I know he did alot of things for me. But he wronged me in many ways.

Can parents give me back my supposedly 'wonderful childhood'?

Haha. They cant. But i am happy that they still love me. I am still proud that i dont smoke, i dont sleep around, i dont do drugs and i dont live my life aimlessly.

Love keeps me going. I still believe there is fairy tale love story. Its my man, who keeps me going. Without my own happy family. I still have a happy relationship. (:

Praise the Lord. (:

*Claire, our Bangkok Trip! When When??

&the beauty.

2:17 AM

I hope this post sums up the things that happened during the past few weeks.

Firstly, I sign up package for indoor tanning at fabulous tan. Because i have no time to go sentosa, though i have the membership there. And i love to have a tanned skin tone.

Ya, fake. But i dont care. The machine. I upgraded from the lying down tanning to the standing one. Laugh at me, but i have the thought that the glass of the lying down tanning booth will break. Too much of movie, watched Final Destination 3? Go figure.

Claire did the most funniest thing at work: HAHAHA!
She said: ' Berlinda have her own bin, Li Juan have her own bin. Ivan, this is give you!'
HAHA!

Before national day, I caught this during the rehearsal outside my workplace.

I will surely marry the guy who propose wedding to me this way. HEEE.

After the National day, just last friday. Caught this outside my workplace also, right after my dinner. They say, its the unfinished firework during national day. I thought what special occasion. Chey.

My Naughty Dog. See whats in his mouth. Shakes head. He is always bitting my rubber band, run and hide under the sofa. He thought i cant find him.

Good night!

&the beauty.

3:05 PM

I have whole lots of things to post about but i didnt have the time to sit down and post about my life happenings.

And when i have some free time, i will just forget about the whole issue or i am just plain lazy to recall and post about it. Since it had already happened for quite some time.

Like, i am so occupied with work. I sleep my whole morning away as i work in the afternoon. And when weekend is here, i would spent the weekend with my big man.

I am going lunch now. Bye!

&the beauty.

1:52 PM

HAHA!

Berlinda! You took off from work, but i am here to update you on the happening in office today!

You know Ivan's leg got injured after playing soccer few weeks back right?

That night, claire changed Ivan's MSN nick to, " still in pain, but leg itchy, still want to play soccer." Ivan took the whole night to realised that claire changed his MSN nickname.

So today, i feel a tad playful. Want to make fun of Ivan.

So i changed his nickname to "Actually, i like guys"

Claire told me to put an emo nick, something like " why you leave without a word last night? it hurts."

So i changed his msn nick, and i added in " i love you tom' and i even change his display picture to him acting cute with the mouth like goldfish.

HAHAHA!

i couldnt contain my emotion and i keep laughing!

But the funny part was that, Ivan doesnt know I change his nickname! He thought i only change his display picture.

Look at the conversation below!

HAHA. Couldnt stop laughing!

&the beauty.

10:31 AM

Just enrol class 2B last night.

How should i tell my aunt about it?

And yar, finally i took a bus and mrt to work today. After 1 month of cabbing.

And i hate those squeezing. Really.

&the beauty.

12:53 AM

Some interesting update.

Went to have lunch near work place yesterday. And we came upon the most expensive 'cai fan' ever.

Mine, 3 buck. For 2 vegetables and 1 sunny egg.

Berlinda's, 10 buck. For 1 vegetable, 1 sambal sotong and prawn. She sulked, cursed and swear while eating all the way. Haha.

We even wanted to gobble down the plate and utensils as well.

&the beauty.

12:25 AM

Been a long time since i last hear this song, 'You are my all in all'

Always a fav song of mine to sing and praise the God.

Thanks God for taking care of me, my life and my love ones.

My S pass is being approved!

&the beauty.

1:37 AM

Work related post!

Posing with my boss's new harley. He say this model, only 2 in Singapore.

Wa lao. why you so rich one. Lambo coming. Driving R8, GTR, Skyline and what else. So many cars for what.

He is trying to remove the stain from his bike, he covered the bike with a cloth when the bike is still hot. And the cloth melted on his metal pipe. HAHA.

Cute.

Work Place. When we switch off almost all the lights.

My Manager! Ivan Yeo Shi Yuan! (:

Good Night!

Clubbing on friday night with the ladies!

&the beauty.

11:21 AM

wake up at 11am.

cab to work.

Late.

- busy - busy - busy - busy - busy -

Finished work at about 10 plus 11pm.

Go home.

Sleep.

Ya, repeat that for 30 days. I did just that.

And for the days to come.

I know why my money is drying up.

Why must they invent cab? When there are buses and MRT.

&the beauty.